White canvas
And a painted dream
Of white swans
A beautiful lake
Green grass surrounding

Years passed by
The canvas grew old
Swans turned yellow
Water splashed on the lake
Green turned brown
Wear and tear
And one day
The canvas tore

As the cool breeze passed me by
A wave of shy smiles, some laughter
affection and love revisited
I sat on a bench
staring at the water
thoughts smiled
Past so beautiful
a present so unbelievable
And then I woke up..

Tired, eyes wide open
words, sentences,
un deciphered,
heard yet un heard,
food gobbled,

...Taste unknown,
music played

not listened,

tick tock, alarm

rush rush, go

rush rush, return

tick tock tick tock tick

Eyes refused to see the other

Good bye halted at the throat

Heart beats awaited a voice

But silence spoke

Bodies moved away

And the memory remained

calm, sound of silence

battleground of thoughts

Uncertainity lingers

Empty and drained

Hope is a wonderful word.

Back after a year, 3 months and 3 days. Spent a night reading through all the old posts. Wonder where that girl disappeared. Wow!! I wrote quite some stupid things on this blog, and surprisingly people did read then :D.

I have been a bit rusty when it comes to writing. Words which flowed easily 3 years ago, suddenly don't seem to flow anymore and I am more to blame for it cos I let myself be rusty and lazy. I guess its a good time to start writing and sharing.

In a few months I complete 30 years of existence on this planet. 3 decades and a lot of memories. I can classify each decade into 3 compartments 1st one of bliss( age group 0-10) 2nd horror( 11-20, with puberty, pimples, college- came a lot of horrors I would rather forget) and 3rd of enlightenment( 21-30) . I guess the best has been the last 10 years, simply because I got to learn a lot of things in life. Past 3 years have been even better. I entered a new phase in life which surprised/astonished/scared/ and made me go through many more emotions. The good thing about it all was I became a better person. It was a beautiful discovery of what a nice and terrible person I can be .

I stand at "coming soon 30" and I am wondering in the next 2 and half months. I need to set a goal to do something, which challenges me further. what can that be? Well let the thought process begin.